niCksters

31.3.06

2:46 PM

So,it is finally Thursday right,and through out the week at care group we've been praying for this girl,Danna.Apparently her mum has been battling breast cancer for some time now and has now passed away. So,every morning we pray for her family.
This Thursday morning,after having a little bit of a cry in the school toilet and whinning and complaining about how horrible i feel and how hard everything is,i sit in care group dreading the long day ahead. This girl walks in,she has arms up to her elbow with fingers growing out of tht elbow.. She has about 7 fingers altogetehr??!!She is obviously disabled,DUH!
She sits infront of me.She actually is very pretty..with short wavy hair and nice big brown eyes..but she'll probably never be 'beautiful'...if u know wht im getting at!
So anyway,as we start care group,she sits there in her own world...when she tells my teacher tht it is her mum's funeral today..she starts crying,then she laughs...next she rests her head on the table... My teacher continues,while Danna mumbles stuff and does silly things...
That morning,i was put to shame.
In my small world,everything is'nt good...
My world is coming apart..
For Danna,who now has lost her mum at the age of 17,who DEFINITELY has disadvantages,and will probably never be normal...thts when u can say your world is falling apart!
I was sooo thankful tht God had helped me see the bigger picture of everything and realise tht there are BIGGER,GREATER things apart from my small world of self pity,complacency and all tht....
That day,i told myself tht NOTHING could bring me down because i know tht i have pretty much everything going well for me!! And tht i should be so thankful i still have my mum and my dad..my siblings..a home...food...friends...a 'perfect' body...right state of mind...just able to walk and sit and eat and think for myself!!!
God is soo good huh!?!!?
So,hey,lets try to be THANKFUL!!!! :) despite everyhing tht we go through!!!! ;)

niCcima

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29.3.06

6:07 PM

HEEELLLLOOOO!!!

But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you againTo see you ..

*some lyrics from mercy me-undone!
title of the song-HOMESICK!!!
I am soooooooooo homesick!!!

i miss.....