24.9.06
6:23 PM
I was talking to a friend today. We were just talking about God and stuff like that.. She mentioned something about how it is so much easier to just pretend that everything is alright..and that everything is working fine.. but when you are alone you are just absolutely broken and there feels asthough there is just NO hope what so ever for a breakthrough in your life and...ya...
I was then just thinking of myself. And how i feel the exact same way. Then i was thinking.. hmmm.. why do we do that?? Why do we pretend to be alright and act asthough we've got everything in control...
For me.. pride plays a major role..
Im too proud to say.. hey.. im not alright.. i dont know how to deal with this.. ive got insecurities that i need to deal with.. im finding this really hard to cope..
It is so so so so much easier to run away from the very thing that you need to deal with. The very thing that scares you. And at the same time.. you know you are running away from the very thing you actually WANT to do.. and the very thing God has called you to do..
Thats what i have been doing.. RUNNING!!!!!!!!
God... i dont want to run anymOre.. I dont want to pretend asthough everything is fine. I dont want to keep running away from the very thing that You have called me to be.
BUT.. i know that ive got a God that is just inbelievable.. and that He NEVER fails me.. His promise lasts forever..
I was reading Romans 8 28-30 last night..
vs 30 - God planned for them to be like HIs Son; and those he planned to be like HIs Son, He also called; and those He called, he also made right with Him; and those he made right he also glorified.
It was a very wow verse to me..it was like.. already in the begining GOd planned for us to be like HIs Son.. like His very own Son.. and that we are called.. like how much of an honour is that??!! To be created to be like His very own Son.. MAN!! that just blows my mind away...
And.. that is why.. i will keEp striving to be ALL that God has meant to be.. Eventhough it is tough and id rather soak in my self pity and keep running away.. and pretending that everything is alright.. i will take those small steps to make it right with God again.. because i know that my GOd will come through.. and that my GOd is all i have.. and is all i need through the seasons.
:)
Thank you belle.. thank yOU..
niCcima
3 Comments:
hey girl! :) I'm glad you're inspired. This post very much applies to me as well. Know that we go through it having the support of family and friends. Haha it's funny sometimes how you can encourage someone, but we ourselves are going through that rough patch. I'm glad that you've matured so much..putting that pride aside and eating that humble pie. Someone once told me with the action of humbleness, it's you who experience the greater work inside. :) I miss you SOO SOO much! Can't wait to see you again SOON! You don't hide that feelings to yourself okay? share it with someone..talk to me! I'm listening and we can cry together lah! hahaha take care girl! *hugs*
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lil-belle, at
September 24, 2006
Dearest belle..
Thank you soooooooo much!!!
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCCHH!!!
i love you la belle.. YEs yes yes..we can cry togetherr!! :) :)
Miss yOuu so mucchh!!!
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niCciraj, at
September 26, 2006
ORACLE....
HAHAHA... you laa.. all your influence.. NO WAIT!!! i shloudnt say thaat!! I miss you la ming.. All our chatss.. and dinners.. and drives in you car.. And aiyooO!!! hahaha.. ;) ;)
Thanksss mingg..
STOP contemplatinggG!!! I willlll KILLLL yoUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Man.. that is just SOOOOOOOOOOOOO embarassinG!!!!!!! WHAT WAS I THINKINGGG!!!!
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niCciraj, at
September 26, 2006
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