17.3.07
10:07 PM
Insecurities...
Insecurities...
I have many insecurities... some clearly more apparent than others...
I am sure all of us struggle with how we look, how we dress, what we wear, what bag we carry, how we smile, what make-up we use perhaps, what mobile we use, what style we wear our hair, where we stay, our weight, our height, our siblings, our parents, even who our friends talk to, or who we befriend...(some of course not as petty)...etc...
The list could go on forever, it's funny how at one stage you seem to have overcomed certain insecurities and have managed to move on and accept the differences and you know...but then, it surfaces again at a different level. Once again, you're struggling with little petty issues like, "my nose is so big", or..."my lips are retarded" or..."im not cool enough" or... "i wish i was more witty", or..."i wish i was more sporty".... Or.."i wish i was more talented"...or..."I WISH I WAS SLIM and SLENDER"... again..the list goes on...however, all these insecurities seem to surface at another level... hmmmm... Sometimes i really wonder... WHY??????????
However, i have come to realize one thing.
It is when I am so secure in God that my insecurities seem easier to handle and deal with...
Then, what people say don't seem to matter too much... My confidence lies in my Creator. I also realize, when you are confident and able to love yourself, people around you want to know how one can be confident and happy without being 'perfect'. (However perfect is perceived)
It is amazing what God can do and wants to do with me and my imperfections.
Thank You so much Daddy...
I need to learn to continuously build my confidence in God or else, I'd be a very broken young lady...
Forgive the 'not so happy' post...
niCcima
2 Comments:
i love you la nicci raj...! so MUCH! A person who is able to admit her insecurities, isn't that insecure after all... :)
By
Kristy Tan, at
March 18, 2007
Hey kristy...
i never thought about it that way...
Thank u babe.
I love you too.. i know i hardly show it but i really do.. i appreciate u kristy!!! i do...
Love yOU!
By
niCciraj, at
March 18, 2007
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