16.4.07
10:22 PM
Inspired by a friend..
I was reading a friends blog, another holiday past time.. He was talking about being child-like in our faith..
To quote him,
Am I worth all that trouble? Am I really living up to my worth? Shucks, am I disappointing Him again? Too filthy to be hugged by Him? Too smelly to be embraced? NEVER!!! shouts a friend at my face, He ain’t looking for a perfect heart, there can never be one. He is looking for an obedient one, and one that is willing to be used by Him.
Last week wasn't easy for me. I messed up pretty bad..AGAIN.. and i hated myself for it.. I hated the fact that i had asked God over and over again to forgive me, and to give me another chance, and He always did.. but i could not even keep to my part of the bargain and live pleasing to Him..
I messed up again last week and i really felt as though i could not ask for forgiveness again, I felt exactly as how my friend had said it.. and I walked around the house feeling absolutely disgusted with myself for not being strong enough and messing up AGAIN..
However, i had friends remind me over and over again that God sees the heart.. a heart that wants to do right and wants to please Him, a heart that wants to be obedient to the word of God, a heart that wants to work at doing what is pleasing unto Him.. Someone that is willing to be used by God..
Anyway, as i read my bible and worked on the mistakes that i had made and coming before God and asking Him to make me pure and Holy before Him, I couldn't help but tell Him how much I love Him and how much i really really really want to do right in everything I do.. And i realized it is because i love Him so much that i want to work at doing my life right and living according to His word..
My God gave up everything for me.. EVERYTHING.. He gave His ONLY son to die such a horrible death for me and for you.. The least I could do, is owe Him my life..and to live for Him whole-heartedly..
I owe God living right..
I owe God loving Him right..
I owe God the highest praise..
I owe God my time..
I owe God being disciplined so that i can study His word and get to KNOW Him..
I owe God everything..
I love my God so much.. I love Him with all my heart.. I want to make Him happy.. I want to have Him say He is proud of me.. I want Him to say, "well done my faithful servant"..
Doesn't mean I wont mess up... Doesn't mean I will have everything together all the time.. It only shows me how much more I NEED my God to lead me and guide me... I want Him to fix my attitude.. and my character.. I want him to craft me in to the young lady I am meant to be..
Psalms 139: 7-10Where can I go to get away from your Spirit?Where can i run from You?If I go up to the heavens, You are there.If I lie down in the grave, You are there.If I rise with the sun in the east and settle in the west beyond the sea,even there you would guide me.With Your right hand you would hold me.
And when I am weak and mess up.. I will know that:
2 Corinthians 12:9"My grace is enough for you. When you are weak, My power is made perfect for you." So I am very happy to brag about my weaknesses, Then Christ's power can live in me.More than anything God, i want Your power to break me and mold me and make me whole so that You may use me for the extension of You kingdom and to bring glory and honor to Your name. Amen.
niCcima
2 Comments:
niccima!!...lolz
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Anonymous, at
April 18, 2007
nicciii cheryl here ^^
God loves you no matter what, we're human and He knows that..so no matter how badly you might have screwed up He'll never hold it against you :D Isn't He amazing. so yeah smile! you look gorgeous when you smile :)
well cya on friday, love ya <3
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April 18, 2007
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