23.7.07
1:20 PM
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Have a good life everybody!!
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niCcima
9.7.07
3:03 PM
my bible reading adventure~!!
It was about 1 in the morning and it had been a good long day..
I opened the bible and wasn't too sure what to read or where to start reading.. Well.. You know how at the back of bibles.. well okay my bible has this thingo at the back of it and its called 'Extreme Index'.. and it goes through alphabetically about the issues in life.. (it is a teens bible) and so.. it has stuff like.. abuse.. acceptance.. actions.. advice.. angels.. anger.. and it gives you books and verses in the bible that address the specific issues lah!! phew.. hahaha..
So anyway.. I decided to look at Sin and Forgiveness.. So as i was reading a couple of verses and that.. I read in Leviticus 26:18-21 and God was saying how much He hates sin and what His punishment for sin was and that.. and i was like.. you know.. WOoo hoOo!! Pretty freaky..
Then i went on to Romans 3:23-24 and Job 9:2 and how it talks about us becoming saved and you know.. we have a NEW heart but we still have a sinful nature..and so we're dealing with a sinful nature not a sinful heart which i thought was pretty cool.. and also just how by God's grace we are forgiven and we definitely do not deserve His grace and forgiveness.. but He does anyway..
So it was cool..
then i went on to Psalm 135:6 and this was really exciting..
It says:
The Lord does what he pleases, in heaven and on earth, in the seas and the deep oceans.
And so i thought.. Cool.. okay.. what has that got to do with sin?? I mean.. when i read that.. i immediately think of okay God.. you are King.. you do what You want.. and You are God lah.. Cool.. But then i read what the 'Extreme Index' had to say about it and I was completely blown away..
Its interpretation is: 'Our sin does not disturb God's plans...'
Now that totally blew me away.. Like.. i mean of course we don't continuously sin and think thats cool.. but just the fact that the verse was looked at in that context is sooooo WOW..
I just sat on my bed and scribbled notes in my journal and in my bible because i was very amazed at just how it was looked at.. It was a great great relief that I knew my stupid ways and my stupid sinful nature wouldn't get in the way of what God wants to do with my life.. but i also was in awe of just how much the bible has to offer..I mean..okay i am supposed to know that by now.. but really.. time and time again when i read my bible..God shows me something that just leaves me speechless.. but i find myself giving in to my laziness and just not forcing and teaching myself to be disciplined and to allow God to leave me speechless more frequently..
In that 15 minutes.. i had a new revelation.. It might not seem like anything to you.. but I needed it for that time and God answered me.. and I was in awe.. How come i can't discipline myself to read my bible for 15 minutes everyday when it really is so inspiring and continues to leave me speechless?????????????
the devil really has it easy with me.. sigh.. I give in sooooo easily to distraction like the TV.. or books.. or INTERNET.. or FOOD.. and just giving in to my laziness.. I am going to work really hard and I am going to make the devil have to think really hard of ways to get me distracted because I want to make my God proud of me..
:D :D
niCcima
7.7.07
7:14 PM
an update~!
Yesterday, i finished term 2 of year 12.. It is so scary thinking about how many days i have left of school and how many days i have left to study for my final year exam.. And then counting down the days to results and then counting down the days to Uni.. It is soooooooo scary.. hhaha.. And at the same time really really exciting.. Can hardly believe i am going to be done with schooling.. I remember when i was in standard one.. In my little..LITTLE blue uniform.. i totally admired the standard sixes.. they were HUGE and cool.. i never never imagined myself getting to that point.. I always remember saying to myself.. Id die before i am that old.. ahhahahah.. i know... how skewed my perception was.. It just seemed impossible to become that old!! hahahah.. Now.. in my BIG blue uniform.. i am amazed at how life has changed and where i am today.. and the things i understand and the things i have seen.. It is soo unbelievable!!
Ive got 4 days to study and then I am off to camp :D Back on Saturday at mindnight.. Then its Sunday and i have my English paper on Monday and my Biology paper on Wednesday.. Am really worried about the biology paper.. Really really need to be studying.. hahah.. Sigh..
Can't wait for Rose to come.. She had to set a date with me.. I thought i was gonna be able to have her all the time.. Considering she comes all the way from Malaysia.. But guess not.. HAHHAHA :D
Really excited to have her..
It is funny.. I decided not to do any work today or any studying today because i want a bit of a break and I'll start studying on Monday.. have the whole day to study.. which i should utilize wisely.. I slept in till 1 this afternoon and then i cleaned the house a little bit and helped mum cook lunch then ate and played diner dash with my brother and watched 'our America' and decided to use the internet.. In 15 minutes, i am already bored.. But when i do have work to do and should be doing work without getting distracted.. i am doing everything else but my work..
Sigh.. i am so over reading blogs.. Kinda gave up on that.. hahah.. Well if i start, i am sure id be hooked.. Updating my blog is such a chore now.. :D
hahahahahahah... "LIFE is so much bigger than what we give it credit for"... hahahhaha..
Joey arrives real sooon! Wish i could drive and we could go out and hang out tonight.. Doubt will see her tomorrow either.. I am at central and she'll be at city.. As you can tell i am really just rambling on..
How was fire up?? Heard some good responses?? :D :D We have michael rowan for camp.. It is going to be so good.. I am really excited.. I was telling a friend last night that God has been WOW.. and i love WOW.. but at this camp.. I am really wanting A LOT A LOT more than WOW.. I am soo excited about what God is going to do for me..and for the other chicks.. and guys too..
God is sooooo amazing lah really.. i really do not deserve His love or His grace and His mercy.. but time and time again he never fails to amaze me!!!!
The other day.. i was on the bus on the way back from the plaza.. and i was sitting behind this guy.. he was soooooooooooooooooooo smelly.. i bet you.. he hasn't showered since winter started.. it is DISGUSTING!! I was about to puke all over him.. It was BAD.. Real bad.. I don't understand how people can go a day without showering.. Even if i do not 'feel' dirty, the fact is i know that i am.. And what totally leaves me speechless, is how GIRLS can go a day AND MORE without showering.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! They need God.. They really do!! :D :D :D
It has been raining really really heavily here.. The wind is unbelievable.. We had assembly yesterday and the wind was blowing all the rain in and we were all wet and the chairs were being blown away and the sound system was just ruined!! hahahha.. Out door assembly!! you've gotta love them!!
Someone said i needed to update.. hence the reason why i rambled on to produce an UPDATE :D :D
ahhahahahahh...
have a good life everyone~!!
niCcima
